Lauren also woke up depressed and was not a very happy little girl today - what a difference from yesterday. She did not want to eat, you could see the sadness in her eyes, and several times she just walked to the other side of the room and stared out at the dogs. We took her outside to enjoy some good warm weather, we almost got her to smile. After dinner (we finally got her to eat a boiled egg) her older sister (Hannah) was the one to get her to finally smile and start communicating again (or at least trying to communicate). The two of them played with Hannah's kitchen, Legos, and wood puzzles.
Although we have been through this before, it is still hard especially when there is nothing that can be done and you just need time to have her process through her grief and loss. We will no doubt continue to have our good and bad days (maybe even good and bad hours within a single day). With time Lauren will feel more secure and reach the point of acceptance and hope!
|Deciding - should I smile?|
|Nope - even with Hannah's present of|
a flower, the smile still is not there.
|The tears started and she did not want|
anybody to console her.
|She finally wanted daddy|
to hold her.
2- hours Later:
|Look is that a smile?|
|Close enough - looks like a smile to us!|