Sunday, January 16, 2011

New Day - Another Stage of Grief

Today was a tough day for everyone.  Yesterday, after the long flight we had no problem sleeping in since we were so exhausted, however last night we all struggled with our bodies  trying to figure out if it was 2am or 6pm! Due to our colds we had the vaporizer going non-stop and have been doing our best to deal with not feeling 100%.

Lauren also woke up depressed and was not a very happy little girl today - what a difference from yesterday.  She did not want to eat, you could see the sadness in her eyes, and several times she just walked to the other side of the room and stared out at the dogs. We took her outside to enjoy some good warm weather, we almost got her to smile.  After dinner (we finally got her to eat a boiled egg) her older sister (Hannah) was the one to get her to finally smile and start communicating again (or at least trying to communicate).  The two of them played with Hannah's kitchen, Legos, and wood puzzles.

Although we have been through this before, it is still hard especially when there is nothing that can be done and you just need time to have her process through her grief and loss.  We will no doubt continue to have our good and bad days (maybe even good and bad hours within a single day). With time Lauren will feel more secure and reach the point of acceptance and hope!

Deciding - should I smile?

Nope - even with Hannah's present of
a flower, the smile still is not there.

The tears started and she did not want
anybody to console her.
She finally wanted daddy
to hold her.

2- hours Later: 

Look is that a smile?

Close enough - looks like a smile to us!

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